Never become University Professor: You will regret it.

Never ever become University Professor ever.. It’s a bad move. If you want become one, make sure either you are rich or your parent is rich or you able to die with small stipend or you have your own company that make you rich. Don’t go in if you have neither of those or able to face those consequences.

University Professor is only a hobbies, not a career, especially for those who come from nothing, because you will end up nothing.

Lesson Learned and Redirection : Career, Love, Dream, Future

So here we are in 2026!

I never expect that 2026 will come this fast. I remember that I experienced a lot of grinding, career switch/moving, break up, don’t trust in love/marriage, lay off, uncertainty, and doubt. The Q4 2025 is the first time I ever felt desperate in my life, where I got laid off, got new offer, rejected by the offer/HR/Hiring team, move to a new city (again), using dating apps then got first date end up ghosted, and facing new challenges.

Laid off is the most thing I never expect. My view about it is as long as I performing well, I won’t ever be laid off and there is always path for me. That view is totally wrong, then I got laid off. This is very dangerous view really shape by my past experience of surrounded by high degree people in higher education plus my totally wrong value that I had as I rarely failed in University. I need to recalibrate it, and redirect/change my way to capture the reality. I need to man up, get my shit together, and deal with real life consequences. The way I calibrate it really need a lot of time, discussion (with AI, thanks AI tools), and contemplation. Lesson learn is, back to basic, no one will save me (other than GOD hands in redirect my path), I need to work hard to increase/compound my capability. The new concept that I learned from AI data is, position yourself in the reality, not criticize the reality, care about yourself, not other. Focus on yourself, and grow.

In process finding new work, I got offer from overseas and help from my former manager, but I land on the local company offer instead. It’s quite sad, but probably GOD still see I’m lacking in some area, so I trust HIM this is a redirection, and I need to learn along the way and grow. The most heavy thing that I face now is, I hold engineering team, but it’s in the field that I dread of the most, AI and it’s derivative. I do able to think the infrastructure and to knit on it, but If I hands on, I can’t, I only know that it require a lot time to master it, so that’s the first problem, the 2nd problem that I face is, I face another responsibility to hold position for account manager that have sales target about 34 Billion in 2026, I need to win it. The only thing in my head is, GOD Please help me.. I do make some strategy and plan for it, got feedback from senior AM, and I think I need to go to my head of business unit after new year day off… I hope this is an actionable plan. I plan to success, so I will be optimist and keep growing!

For the overseas offer, well.. it’s a dumb move, I think after probation, I would probably jump into their ship, but seems overseas system scrap my LinkedIn, causing me to be dropped by them, and they say I accept another company offer. They rejected in last phase after I do my code, live coding, etc… Well lesson learned. Don’t bother update LinkedIn too fast. Well, moving to new City is hard, I need to have a new support system, friend, and other things settled, if not I will be lonely and crazy lah… I even doesn’t have anyone as my partner, I think I have been single for more than 6 year.

And come to the part where I use dating apps… well, I date one girl, she is gorgeous, in same field as I’m, but she is a higher earner, higher 3-5x times my current salary… but she is younger. This is first time I ever seen a local company paid that high for engineering manager… crazy lah… I never expect it… But that open a possibility for myself, and I can think, I will able to out-earn her near future, I really hope I can achieve it. GOD please bless my hand and my hard work, and help me set and redirect me to the right path to achieve this and go glorify YOU alone!

The challenges? 34 Billion… I will work hard, grind hard, and grow, no matter what… solving people problem, and help them achieve what they want, is my mission! GROW GROW GROW!

Thank you GOD for the opportunity!

Laundry Soap Used, No Apology

Okay, “Laundry Soap Used, No Apology” is a pretty funny title, and I never expected to be writing it for a blog post. Honestly, this might be the dumbest thing I’ve ever written, but I need to get it out so I can think clearer and make better decisions. I’m actually pretty annoyed and mad about this simple thing.

Long story short, I live in a boarding house, and a new housemate just moved in. I said hi to him once, but they probably didn’t care much. These days, it’s pretty much “I’m me, you’re you,” and I get that. As long as they don’t bother me, I have no issues.

This new housemate seems to think anything left out in the open is communal property, no questions asked. I usually leave my laundry detergent in the laundry area. That’s normal; I’ve never had a problem with other housemates coming and going, even if they used my soap. But this kid just moved in and immediately used my soap… I was obviously confused. I wouldn’t even dare use someone else’s stuff left out, especially if I knew it wasn’t mine.

So I asked him, “Did you just do laundry and use the soap in the laundry area?” He said yes. I told him not to use it, that it was my soap. And then he just didn’t care and closed his room door. No “sorry,” no nothing. Haha…

I’m not asking for respect or anything, but bare minimum, a “sorry” or something. He didn’t seem to feel bad at all. From the next day until now, he have completely ignored me. The landlord is just like, “Whatever, that’s normal.” They don’t want to get involved at all, which is messed up… But I can’t just move out that easily. So, whatever, I’m learning to give in… I’m genuinely super annoyed. At least say sorry or something, but nope, he just seem even more entitled.

Well, it’s a lesson learned. We can’t expect anything from other people, but at least I showed my stance. The damage is already done… it’s not that expensive, but it’s quite damaging from a relationship point of view… so whatever it is, I’m learning.

Growing in community : It’s hard

Well, growing in a church community is also hard, when you, yourself have your own idea, it’s so hard that we need to go out to learn to manage our expectations and feeling. Suddenly you attracted to a member, but then they reject you. 😂

Well I think it’s better to focus just to God and worship HIM.

That’s it.

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